20 April 2003
Easter vacation is almost over now. I miss my mommy! I woke up 6.30pm today. Nobady is here to wake me up. Well I was up late yesterday. Plus I had to walk 7 km km to get home because there was no buses. I must bring my camera next time I walk home so that you can see how depressing it looks... It's no more depressing than a big empty highwaty. And me alone at the side, walking. It's no wonder you get tierd.
Here are some pictures from out darty this wednesday. We were at Johanna's house. Everybody bought something to eat, I had made mushroom lasange. It was eatable!
15 April 2003
Anna were just here, we watched Twin Peaks, the beginning of "Jules & Jim" (it was boring) and the beginning of "The Beast". It was late so we didn't have time to watch it all. The Beast is far the most silly film I ever seen, it's even worse than Sal�! I love it! I'm listening to Ultravox. Anna and I talked abot religion. Her parents are very religious. Anna says that that effects their whole lifes. It's like they don't live to live, they live to die, what kind of life is that really? Everybody's going to die, no matter if you believe in God or not and if you don't do something with the life you got why do you live anyway? You have to fill your life with something. Do something that you find meanful. I know it's hard, I think it must be the hardest thing in the world but you have to try.
12 April 2003. 02.30 a.m.
The page is almost ready! My family is leaving tomorrow. I'm going to be alone for one week. I'll get so thin! I can't cook and I probably won't eat anything. I really hate cooking! My father had his birthday this Wednesday. He's now 48. I gave him a present that I bought when I had a panic attack at Tuesday- A CD with opera music. I don't think he was very thrilled over it... But atleast I thought it was good!
I have been thinking about Isak again. I think I have a crush on him. He's a friend of Erik and my parents know his parents. It's so ironic that my mother tried all my childhood to get us together- I didn't want to! Now I do and now Isak is engaged. VERY ENGAGED! Well I just have to go on, haven't I?
Last night I dreamt that a nice-looking man put some tooth-paste on my stomach and that was very sensual. I have the wierdest dreams of all people I know. If it isn't sexual-oriented then I dream that I'm dead or that someone is running around chopping people's heads off- and I'm an agent who's trying to stop him.
But I like the sexy dreams the most! Hihihi!